I was 14 when I got pregnant, and I never wanted to give up my daughter but everyone else wanted me to. So when I was around 36 weeks pregnant I finally decided to give her up knowing it would be the best for her. So when she was born and I first held her, I knew I couldn't give her up, so when I was discharged I went home with her. I was very excited, and overwhelmed with everything and my sisters were still telling me all this crap that I didn't want to hear. So the next day, I ended up giving her up to the family we had chosen. But once she was out of my arms, I knew there was no point to life. I couldn't even talk to anyone for that whole day. I was just so hurt and was crying all night and didn't even sleep that night. Not knowing what I had just done I needed her back. So my mom went back to the agency the very next morning and told them we wanted her back. All they said was, "No, we cant do that, I'm sorry."  I was heartbroken.  I just lost my daughter because I didn't listen to what I wanted, I just listened to the people around me. So now we're in this whole court process to get her back, and it's hard because they are fighting back and refuse to give her back. I honestly don't know how someone can be that selfish when it come to a little baby. But they say this can take months, and the longer my daughter is with them, the more she's gonna be attached, so I'm just about ready to give up. All I want is her back in my arms, and that's all. I blame myself for everything.